#6 T'hilim and Kohelet part 1

I forgot my needlepoint, so I was a bit tense as we started, didn't know how it would effect my concentration. It usually keeps me from "over particiapating," but since we had a low turn-out, I was able to talk for all those absent.

We're still on XXXI, 16 aiming to finish that chapter. As usual, it took me a bit to get into it.
Back to the concept of busha, embarrassment. It's a major impetus for tshuva repentence. Even when we're sure we must have had repented for a certain sin, suddenly we feel embarrasssed again by it. How could that be when once should be enough? The Rav Tzadok from Lublin says it's like when you're in high school you relearn the history you learned in elementary school, but on a higher level. Busha is very important for the growth of a person, standards and values. Then there was something about busha becoming fire, then tears and jealousy, but I somehow was out of it.

Reward in olam haba, the world to come. We shouldn't try to figure out the relative merit/value/weight of mitzvot and sin. We can't calculate and shouldn't even attempt.
21- m'ruchsei ish, pride of man, heights
3 main languages for three different reasons/purposes
Latin-war
Greek-talk, philosophy
Hebrew- prayer
22- David thanks G-d for saving him, and we went into Shmuel alef XXIII, 1 to learn the story of how David rescued a city and then entered it, and when Saul discovered that he was there, he went after him, even though he had done a great thing for the people. Then we learned some mishnayot debating if one can sacrifice one Jew to save another. Like the nazis asked the Judenrat, or even like now if we can destrooy yishuvim to try to save others. The bottom line from the mishna is NO.

end of part one--I'm freezing