Now I Understand...

Sadly, I must say, I now understand the recent actions of one of my favorite young jbloggers, who recently took the drastic step of deleting the contents of her popular blog.

A post, Orthodox Blogger Bullies," on a new to me blog, Chicago Carless revealed the sordid truth of why she had felt it necessary to delete the posts that told her honest, sometimes painfully honest personal and spiritual odyssey, from an ordinary American Christian girl to an Orthodox Jew. 

Especially since I had met her last year in Jerusalem, when they was still married, I consider her more than just an intenet acquaintance and fellow jblogger.

Once someone converts to Torah Judaism, he/she is a Jew.  And then, like all Jews, the personal spiritual journey will continue until the day we die.  None of us are angels.  We're all capable of being stubborn, making mistakes, even sinning, and also doing fantastically wonderful things, for people and G-d.  We Jews must remember that the only one we must answer to is G-d, HaKodesh Baruch Hu.

There are so many mitzvot, commandments in so many varied categories.  The "bookkeeping" is G-d's secret.

We're supposed to be doing teshuva, repentance all the time, constantly trying to improve ourselves.  And it's between us and G-d.  I hope that whoever it was (or they were) who made her decide to suppress her inner thoughts and life from public view will learn that the most important mitzvah  to keep mehadrin is Derech Eretz.